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Tumblr's Toxic Waste
Tuesday, December 25th, 2018 08:40 pmOr maybe I *won't* be posting every single day because gdi writing is hard work and takes a lot of time.
I'm really not used to not living in fear every time I utter a squeak because I stg the TINIEST slip up could get you killed on Tumblr so I just shut up for the most part. Even if I said anything people would seemingly misinterpret what I said on purpose while insisting their POV was the only proper one (even if they were basing their entire arguments on headcanons that weren't canon but "probably were, I mean that's how most people see it" and I was not in that fandom for long).
Now that I can, like... post stuff, and be relatively certain nobody's gonna scream at me for it... or follow people and be relatively certain they're reasonable adults with an actual grasp on reality... I have no idea what to do, or what I'm capable of accomplishing in a day, or what. I mean, I'm still nervous hitting "post", but at least I can actually do it.
Hell, instead of quitting entirely I've gotten bolder on my tumblr, reblogging a couple of hot takes I genuinely agree with and actually talking in a reblog of a post about water (though, as I get used to DreamWidth, I imagine I'll stop using tumblr entirely at some point. Slow death, here.)
( Brief, Somewhat Personal Stuff and Also Stuff Regarding Abuse, Exclusionism, and Racism on Tumblr )
Anyway, uh... Illuminating Eve is absolutely not a 16-page outline in development hell, it's just that I'm not good at planning yet. Soon! In the mean time, I'll post other things and deal with the guilt of not working on that one big project myself because the rational part of my brain won out: if I focus solely on the horror fic on my DreamWidth, people will expect nothing but the horror fic, and I don't wanna pidgeonhole myself like I accidentally did with the Pony Storm of 2015.
I'm really not used to not living in fear every time I utter a squeak because I stg the TINIEST slip up could get you killed on Tumblr so I just shut up for the most part. Even if I said anything people would seemingly misinterpret what I said on purpose while insisting their POV was the only proper one (even if they were basing their entire arguments on headcanons that weren't canon but "probably were, I mean that's how most people see it" and I was not in that fandom for long).
Now that I can, like... post stuff, and be relatively certain nobody's gonna scream at me for it... or follow people and be relatively certain they're reasonable adults with an actual grasp on reality... I have no idea what to do, or what I'm capable of accomplishing in a day, or what. I mean, I'm still nervous hitting "post", but at least I can actually do it.
Hell, instead of quitting entirely I've gotten bolder on my tumblr, reblogging a couple of hot takes I genuinely agree with and actually talking in a reblog of a post about water (though, as I get used to DreamWidth, I imagine I'll stop using tumblr entirely at some point. Slow death, here.)
( Brief, Somewhat Personal Stuff and Also Stuff Regarding Abuse, Exclusionism, and Racism on Tumblr )
Anyway, uh... Illuminating Eve is absolutely not a 16-page outline in development hell, it's just that I'm not good at planning yet. Soon! In the mean time, I'll post other things and deal with the guilt of not working on that one big project myself because the rational part of my brain won out: if I focus solely on the horror fic on my DreamWidth, people will expect nothing but the horror fic, and I don't wanna pidgeonhole myself like I accidentally did with the Pony Storm of 2015.
